Sorry.
To me, the word feels relatively natural.
Was it a lack of pride? Or a lack of self-worth? Or perhaps it could be something more positive, like a lack of arrogance?
No idea yet, you know. It's kinda difficult when your apologies number relatively more than the number of your boasts.
Oh wait, that's a boast in itself. Haha..
But a mere "Sorry" and a "Sorry, I'll keep reflecting and changing" has a big difference.
Words versus words AND action.
Just as it is for guilt and remorse (at least in my dictionary).
Guilt is where one apologizes, keeps having this heavy feeling in his/her heart without really thinking about changing, but keeping the unhealthy faith that he/she is the one always at fault without thinking on HOW to change it.
Remorse is where one apologizes, perhaps even cries about it, but REFLECTS on where things had gone wrong, and thinks about changing as well as plan for it in the future.
I like to think after certain things have happen, after all that clamoring and whining and complaining and sullen behavior, there's remorse now.
It might even be a blessing, since they come unbidden, sudden, without a word of warning or indication that something good will happen. Random actions like looking at the sky or flipping through your phone history for no reason gets you thinking.
Thankfully it's a good thought.
Can I change?
We'll see...And I'll see to it. Somehow.
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